B~

T.T...today is d last day for me in my house...tomolo going for my ns...haih, this feel seems more suffer den i going aus for my study, coz wen to ns have no hp, no computer, n having my new hair style...swt, 3 months, seems very short but feel very long..XD
just now went to sue house, at 1st wen she called me into her house, i feel scare, haha, n tension... dono y, maybe this's normal feeling gua...n saw her sister, lol, it seems more cute den wat i've imagine...cute cute!!XD sue don envy, u also very pretty gah...muackx...
so sked of tml, maybe after 1 week or i've met some fren den wil get use to it faster...plz god, protect me from those gangster...XD n let me out from the jail COMPLETLY!!XD
i wil miss u dear...!!! muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx ...

Haih...suff...

lol, i am now siting at center point all alone here... got nothing to do, just here to waiting time to pass by... abit suffer la now...haih...n also abit fire..XD i come here al alone to kl frm ipoh d wo, to find her... but then now she is inside d house..T.T
haih, but then if she come out at night sure will get scolded by her aunty or her mum, so... suan ba...XD
very sian neh, dono y this laptop cant watch n laungh d website for the movie i wan to watch, i think the problem is bcoz of the firewall...swt... charm... after today, we ony can met after 3 month later, after i NS, with my new hair style..XD
i realy think in tat way evrytimes, 3 months realy long to go and hard to pass, n yet ony sunday can get back our cellphone...so, maybe after i get in, everything wil b different after i get out from d JAIL... maybe she got another?lol... wat to do and say now... drink my coffee, waiting time to pass, listen to song...suffer!! wan to c her more and longer also cant, althu we is very near to each other now, ony a road between us... but then, suen ba..lol she got her own matter n business to do...

now, realy hoping to get my own laptop as soon...haha...

哇噻!!

哇...sk回澳洲了,时间过的真快,两个星期一下就完了T.T...前晚去了bf一趟,哇了恶,没想到ladies night的气氛果然与众不同,特别恐怖..XD这可是人生中玩到最夜的一天...在里头,不知不觉就三点了...但还好啦,没喝到过度酒精所以没有什么异常的感觉...哈哈,这次换我见到雪茹低头呕吐...哇哈哈!!没想到两年多(应该是吧)没见的豪,好象发福是的,一口气就花了应该是上千吧,利害,这么大方的请了我们!!有得刷卡果然特别帅..XD早知就尽量叫来喝啦...真希望能得到自己的'万能卡'..喜欢就刷...XD
哎...还有一个星期就得把心爱的头发剃光..哈哈,呜呜...期待我的新发型...已有两个礼拜没见到舒了,如她所说的,距离似乎远了...T.T上回和朋友饮茶,得了不少知识...哇哈哈...就如,现在的情侣之间要得不是关心和关怀了,应该是空间最重要吧...你给的越多,它就越开心...应该是这样吧!!你在乎的越多,关心的越深,到最后,伤害最深的倒是自己,你不管它,自己不用心烦,它也不会闲你烦...我想想,这倒是...以往常叫惠早睡,别去clubbing.还不是耳边风,到最后却自己被闲烦,自己心疼...咳,别管她倒是最好...自己轻松,它人开心...
待在sk家应该有两个礼拜吧,哇,好开心,尤其一班朋友在一起时,但有时倒很闷叻,哇哈哈!!去了国外的sk果然变了,身材变大只了,性格也变了...他既然能在同一天和三个不同女生说同一句话..佩服!!早上载chiaki,两人躲在客房里一整个早上,下午载weiwei两人竟然在客厅亲热,抱来抱去,晚上去jiayi的家...看到我们的眼都大了..O.o"一个晚上还和meeyan去看戏...这种男生似乎比较快乐...没烦恼!!有钱有财有貌有势特别不同...!!现在的女生似乎喜欢这种男生...哈哈,再闲也没用...现在倒期待去服兵役的那天..紧张又期待!!

Complicating...

Haha, everything was so complicated in this world... how am i going to discover n figure out all of these...finally, i started with sue 2 days ago, but then we start arguing after 1 day we start, means yesterday night...swt...argue about nonsence agn, she keep ask me about Sherru stuff...plz la, plz don make me so fedup abt it, i have aproved u so, for sure i cant like 2 girls in a time, as i am not play boy...XD

And yesterday she keep on asking, i think she is expecting me, comon, don think me in tat way...althu i admit i have feel on her last time, and yet its already pass...u asked me for together and i aprove but then u keep on mention wat happen b4 us...she mention wat i have done in her house...swt, althu i wil acpt tat u n ah lock cuddling each other while all the ways both of u was slping, izit more serious tat wat hav i did,althu the identity is different, but wat both of u do is more obvious den us, we just do wat a fren can do as well, no big deal on it...if without saying the identity, u r more deceitful den me!!!but then i know it was passed, so i donwan mention all these pass tense anymore...plz, compromise with me... arent u r hoping those love just like ur cousin tat kind, but then we just start 1 day already start argue in these serious topic tat u create..T.T plz, i donwan like tis, wat i prefer is also just like urs, normal n happie love between u...XD would u?

haih, so suffer on thinking of these...

the next day morning...

预算...昨天晚上,虽然很累,但就如我所预了,失眠,但还好,能躺在我的爱窝上,但也少了我的抱枕..T.T
整晚就一直想起最近发生的事情...T.T 最令我头痛的是,学院的事情...
看着我现在的地步,就想起在培南的我,懒惰的我,爱玩的我,不懂事的我,造成现在的我...XD哈哈..还好有个伟大的女人在我身边陪伴着我,伟大的妈妈,我爱您!!XD真的很幸运有位这样的母亲,只有她似乎了解我现在的感受和情况,一整晚一直陪着我...我越来越喜欢这个家庭了,我也知道,'野蛮'的父亲也开始尝试改变了...天啊!!外面的世界可真大,渺小的我能做出什么伟大的贡献呢...
伟大的世界,伟大的宇宙,伟大的上帝...引领我啊,渺小的我经常迷失方向的...

Lost my beautiful world...

now...just came back frm kl by bus with sue...abit tiring hoping to slp earlier but i know i cant... just came back with my moody spirit, luckily sue acompany me, if not my tears will split out while all alone in bus..we are trying to entertain each other..XD

i think i will confuse my life in kl, althu i have try hard in it, but sometimes thing r not runing as wat we r wishing..T.T i think i am not going to continue taking risk on it...it make me feel more guilty on my own...wtf man, maybe try hard to discovered another way... actually,while the way i coming kl alone...there's many problem around me...condition of college, relationship with sue,transporting problem in kl or how is me going to back ipoh in future...XD but then some of it already been solve, i think there is no such big problem for returning ipoh, n the problem between sue have been solve frm her mouth, shun qi zi ran, wat a short and good phrase.XD so, i think both of us treating each other as friends or good friend now, althu this is not the final answer tat i hoping, but then i've feel tired on it...

Now a days, i am just having many unnecessary problem around me, its going to piss me off and make me crazy... but then, no one is realy understand my problem althu i act nothing frm my shell...now, i starting to hate tis world.(sory god)XD it not as beautiful as i wishing seen last time, i tot this world was cute, but then no, this world is honest and need our own strenght to work our mission and target harder... just feel like crying now, realy fedup al creepy things around me althu my family is warming me now...hhuhh...wat i realy nit now is just a real friend or gf(if necessary)XD to hear my wick voice...XD

Please god, hear my voice and help me up, no one can solve my big problem unless u... althu my tears is coming out now...T.T human r weak, weak enuf, have no enuf strenght to do wat we want...hope my view wil be bright back soon...^^

piss~

Frankly...i cant totally understand y she r stil so damn like taking liquor, althu i keep beting her no to since dono wen, i also feel fedup on my own already, and also feel realy like ahma so long winted as she say...XD maybe try not to care it... just suffering my own self...swt...last night heard she say wat is happen tat night sunday...she say she hang the whole night with those guys, tat gang of people, feel unhappy wen heard it althu i act nothing in fon chat...i ask my self, shud i angry for it? or it doesnt my business...i cant even answer my self...

i keep on wondering...if 1 day, have a girl confess to me, or i saw a girl tat i like... can i accept her or kao her? difclty...until now...i cant even clear the relation between us now, wat identity am i now... single? or in a relation?
n yet i recall tat u r stil saying me tat i am easily to give up...pif!! n yet say it was unfair...i wondering it...i din ever ask girl for chances b4, and i asked u 3 times...haha...wat u r hoping? u wan 999 roses with those word? or some other suprising event? ha, althu i cant force u to admit it or acept it...
As u say, we sms n fon chat everyday is seems we r together... but i realy cant get any conclusion on us, or maybe u wil change ur mind 1st 1 day...
i always remind my self...if 1 day i realy fall in love with other, i think i did not done any offences...beside, i have asked u 3 times for the chances, n u r the 1 who say no...

Suffering

i have just pass the night, suffering night...
after getting the beer,f@ck...my brain turn spinny and start headache...
althu it was very crowd, but then just having a moody spirit, and... the damn beer...lol

happy.. but sad...

Aikz, finally can use pc after Sherru finished her chit chat and went for rest...XD

this pc no chinese star for me agn...swt...today whole afternoon i hang around with sherru at jj n her house...oww,n now, going to stay over night at her house coz later we going to clubbing with her fren, as she bet...lol...aikz, so sad tat she is going to leave, y shud i sad for her i figuring, arent i going to leave ipoh n go kl also...but then only she is the one who seems more seriously, i think penang is nearer compare to kl...but then no one mention abt tat i am leaving...haha, maybe i am too tiny for them..T.T

haha, at 1st we r going to watch movie at jj, but then most of the show i and her already watched, so she suggest go her house to pui her coz her parents have already been to penang, n just leave her and her cutie sister alone at home,aikz, so cute her sis,i hope to get my own child as soon after seeing her..XD

Then, we spend most of our time in her room,we watched mr.bean holiday at her room, it was the movie tat i haven watch and please to watch it as soon, haha, maybe bcoz i like mr.bean...but then after the movie end,i din feel tat the show is nice, the whole movie make me feel bored, only bcoz mr.bean funny action tat make me laugh and keep on enjoying the show only...aikz...and wen the show is on, she keep mentioning jokely she was cold and wanted me to cuddle her...lol,sure, i do it as her wish... after the show, she asked me tat, althu she is my kai mui, arent we stil got chance together, i say jokely, where got brother and sister together geh, she keep on mention it, tat kui mui is just wat i wan her to be, but then she haven aprove yet..swt.. of coz i know i have feel on her, but then b4 tat i keep on think to eat back sue, n now this problem have solved, so i keep on repeling her b4 tat, but then now i found out she is not as bad as i think, a nice cute girl..XD... so i tell her 'maybe'..lol

ha, my parent kept called me many times, n wen i told them i am going to stay over night at fren house, they keep worrying am i staying with a girl..lol, coz they already know tat i date a girl wen i at kl...(driver chun my pou..lol)

Now already feel sleepy, aikz... later stil nit to go out so lately...T.T haih, but then this pc no msn, no game, got nothing...only got the DAMN skype!!!

累!!

回到家了,感觉有点累...精疲力尽...XD刚从吉隆坡独自搭巴回来怡保...
哎呀,本想再离开吉隆坡的最后那一餐可以吃我喜爱的虾面,但考完help的试后都关档了..T.T
呵呵...雪茹下个礼拜要转去槟城读书了..伤心..哈,想起之前叫她当我干妹时那一刻是多么的可笑...haih...一切都不是我所'于'的...世界上,太多我想不到的事了...

oww...lame day...T.T

English...XD haih, need to type english bcoz no chinese star..XD swt...wat a lame day for today...just finish 1u, curve and ikea all alone today..muahaha.. errr...i think din use much $$, just only al those taxi fair... and bought some stuf for my own room from ikea..to make my room look nicer..XD

walao,i have already 3 days combo at 1u..haha,3 days also taken fast food at there..realy, vomiting to recall tat..XD but i walked with sue 2days in 1u, ha.. i think we have al most finishing al those entertianment there...watched movie, SingK, pool, bowling..and for sure my money pass by just like air..T.T haha, but also better to stay at home without any event... haha, i finally asked sue the ques...and her answer,damn fast..lol seems like already know i am going to ask...haha...but i din have any dissapoint sad or those unhappy feeling..XD weird...nvm...it was good to me.. and she remind me tat i don like girl make up or clubbing... i mean to my self, i m not hate it. n now also feel tis kind of event also not wat, but, just don do it so recent, and clubbing is not a healthy program also ma...XD i think i going back ipoh alone tomolo, and going to think wat i shud do for my mum tis sunday..XD mother days coming...

last night...recall back abit fire but also..haha.. i and sue wait for her fren jia zhu from 8.30smtg until 11... swt...tat time my stomach already pain like hell, dying gastric and abit tired also...wait for them for the dinner(bcome supper), and finaly we took at center point mamak stall...before return, jia zhu say can TRY to fetch me home, haha, tat time feel so erm, i think is happy to save taxi fair..lol but last... i suggest him put me at 1u and i take taxi staright back to my relative house..haha, bcoz al of us dono the way back...ha, and i am so appreciate of him...i think he is a nice guy(car run of water.XD) and he abit shy while talking i feel...

HELP college called me, and they say already approved me... can i go? or if i go i am just taking the risk...haih...very fan abt tis topic, dono wen ony can settle al those problem around me..ha, feel so good having so many problem, seems already bcoming a big boy..XD

last night keep on recalling the movie, the hills have eye... damn it... it was so rediculous and disgusting...swt... especialy wen that girl squez out the eye ball of the monster...yukzz...haha, but dono y... my mind keep on pulling me to watch tis movie althu already know it was it...haha, and the victim i think is sue.XD feel so sry to her...haha

算了!!

哈,原本打算再次追求惠...
但和她的对话中,算了...气!!!
当我打错了吧...哼!!
朋友说的对,你主动,她一定得意...
我想了再想,也对...她不是我喜欢的个性...追到后,可能又会像以往一样吧...
和她之间可说是完全的陌生了...本想重新开始...算了!!不说了!!哈哈...
越说越气...><"
最近又无所事事...一直待在电脑前...干嘛?

创世纪...读书...

在过几天学院就考试了,刚考完了又再考...心想还忙过在培南!!!
我一直心想...如果真的去到吉隆坡后,我能不能专心读书,还是还会老样子?
希望能够成熟点吧...可能再过几年就要面对大人的世界了...
现在希望我能"改过知新"..XD
这几天都和舒惠一直聊天,每一次都有种冲动想告诉她,我还喜欢她...
但我克制自己,警告自己,我没酱的权利了...哈
算吧,如去了吉隆坡后,就希望能专心读书...
读书,读书,读书,读书,读书,读书,读书!!!

疯了!!XD

昨晚是ah weng生日,我们都去shutter8为他庆生(被逼的)...XD 他妈的,既然酱多人出现,比我想像中的多,连我最不想见到的雪洳也来了..==!! 没关系..还穿我最讨厌女生穿的服装,露背又低胸,吊!!整晚又坐在我隔壁缠着我... 哇噻...感觉多么不爽又不自在!!!路过的男生都会一直凝视着她,没想到她就越来越得意...过后,他们叫了两jar skol,倒了一杯给我,喝下第一口就想吐了...没想到她一口气就和完了...酒鬼...她又问我要不要帮我喝她以为她是谁...别一直当我是你男朋友!! ><
-难过和难忘的一夜..XD
今天舒惠他们也从吉隆坡回来,晚上问我要不要去breeze...但ah weng 的生日所以没得推...听关说好象很有趣...T.T (叹气)..希望下个礼拜在吉隆坡找学院能顺顺利利吧!!!

全走了...

舒惠在昨天去了吉隆坡...
还是蛮想念我们以前一起在培南的日子...
看到身边的朋友全部都离开怡保了,
真的有些不舍得,不舍得以往在一起的时光,
真的没想到,长大后的世界真的没我想像中的好...
可以说是开始恨了吧!!
(我不想,我不想,不想长大!!!)
但...人都是要成长的吧...
在成长中,不知还得经过多少风风雨雨呢...
感情的事,就是让人最难摸索...
到现在的我,还是老样子,老是不碰书...
想想还是不行...必须振作起来...
昨晚硬硬的那起课本开始读...
哈,可说越读越美味..XD
希望这种态度可以延续吧...
加油!!!

叹叹叹...叹气!!!

前天,我,adrian,俊豪,舒惠和萍一起在parade Kbox 唱K...这可能就是我和她最后一起出去了...舒惠将会在星期日到吉隆坡读书了...(叹气)

时间真的过的很快,所有东西一转眼就过去了...朋友的阵容都变成一堆散沙了...(叹气)

昨晚竟然打电话给舒惠问她星期六晚能去rum吗.一谈就谈了一小时半...在谈话的阶段,我发觉我们俩都忘了自己的身份...我似乎很过分,竟然和别人的女友谈了酱久,还约人出去...哈哈!!

昨晚谈的蛮过瘾的,什么都谈,又突然听见她妹妹的声音,发觉似乎都很久没和惠谈话了...看以后应没酱的机会了吧...坦白说,真的很想念以前和她在一起的时光...不明白,为什么身边的朋友全部忘情忘得那么快...而我却不能...可能还需要一些时间吧...

哈哈,真希望时光能倒流...从新好好的珍惜她...(叹气)><"

话说回来,现在的我真的不想再拍拖了...因为我不想我深爱的人以后变成我的敌人...通常一分手就成敌人了...干嘛要这样?干嘛要到这种地步?干嘛要和自己深爱的人反目为仇?

感情这游戏不好玩,也玩腻了,所以以后都要好好的看待所拥有的感情!!!

不想在面临这种惨剧...

加油吧!!!

爱情凶手!!

哈哈，好懒哦，很久没写'部落客'了，哈哈.
最近舒惠一直找我聊天，奇怪?她的爱情应该好象出现问题...
(叹气...)希望他们没事吧...
从她口中知道她现在的男朋友好象没什么把她放在心上叻...可恶,干嘛世上这么多花花公子啊...拍拖的真谛到底变了什么?游戏?爱后就抛?爽?这种男生最好绝种吧!!败坏爱情的凶手!!!
现在,没谈恋爱的我,好象一身轻,又想谈..哈哈!!
我要的,应该是一个简单的爱情吧...双方开开心心,当然有时也会吵吵闹闹,但最好就是避免吧...
哈哈,开始乱乱说话了...@@

痛苦的爱情

我的爱情刚经历了一次前所未有的痛，这种痛来自我的心里。我在为以前的任性、自我的行为作出否定的判断，甚至我尽一切努力去改变，试着去相信我能够做到我想做的事情。事实证明，我可以做到。毕竟我是发自内心地愿意去做。痛不在这里。而在于，我在做这些的同时，整个人变得过分、非常过分的敏感，我会不断地问自己，是否自己哪里做的不够好？哪里做错了？是不是她心里有什么想法？无数的问号让我无法停止思考。如果双方都经历了同样的痛以后，难道不应该更能了解和体会对方的感受吗？如果痛苦是会让彼此产生更多共鸣的话。如果能够了解，为什么一定要对方经历这样的折磨？痛，已经足够了。假如还需要一些惩罚的话我愿意接受。但请设定期限。如果我有一颗正在尽力的心无论她如何的坚强同样需要另外一颗来扶持，而不是给予冰块来冻结，毕竟，我们都经历了痛苦，伤口都在愈合中。

写到这里，我突然发现，只有从痛苦中逃离，回头看体会痛的滋味的时候，它会让人成长，让人懂得珍惜未来将有拥有或者现在已经拥有的一切，而下一个痛苦也许已经在那里等待。等待我们去接收...

我一向都不相信缘分，但，如果有，我不会躲避，我会接收...爱情往往总是从快乐开始，而痛苦总会是过程或结局。幸运的是爱情还没有出现句号，但是经历我可以肯定的是，痛苦的过程总会让人变得敏感，脆弱。

不是每把钥匙，都有幸福爱情. ... 钥匙可以打开一段爱情，也可以关上一段爱情...

世上的人，在爱情的国度中，何时你会感到幸福呢？

算了吧...

昨晚,我真是笨蛋...
本想找舒聊聊...但一直都想不到任何话题...最后只好假假问她送我的拼图哪买的?想从那话题开始,
也顺便想问问她的境况,当然她和她男朋友的事情也想了解,也知道明天她将会和他一起去旅行...哈哈...心疼...
但只聊到拼图的话题时,发觉她已不想聊了...很明显嘛,直觉在告诉我在打扰祢...所以就和她说拜...
今天早上,做了一个狠毒的决定,就是彻底忘了她...就从电话中,电脑,msn,总知有关她的,就删除掉,很毒吧,哈哈...没办法,我一直想尽办法,但还是无法忘了祢,就只有这么做咯...
现在的我只觉得,我们真的没必要在做朋友了,现在的我们,只是在彼此躲避对方,就不如当着对方不存在就好了... 祢有你的春天,我也会开始我的秋天...
以前,我说当朋友时,都是为了以后能复原在一起才说的...但现在,我看我们俩都不用这个名分了...
即使有回头的一天或机会,我看,我们都不会选择那条路...

毕竟

两天都出街去了,
两天都没花钱,(笑话)
两天都去了各自的家...(太急了吧)
但是,我的心还是一直想着你,祢啊祢...
毕竟和你一起度过超过365天...哈哈...
对祢的感觉虽然越来越微弱,但是还是有...
想想心目中,你好像还是高高居上...
但是不久,可能就会不同了...
我一心只想找一个能天长地久的...但很少女生是这样的吧...
虽然很好笑,但如果不希望天长地久,那以前在一起是为了什么??玩?爽?一时的冲动?
如是那早知就别开始嘛...
虽然不能保珍能天长地久,但,没有这种想法的,就别想了...
希望新的一个祢可以永远的在我身边吧...哈哈...(好贪心的想法哦...)

爱能急吗?

呼,今天下午她竟把我带去她的家...哈哈...第一次去她的家,没想到酱大...
可惜没家人在...空虚也,哈哈...
过后她叫我留在家,她出去买午餐回来,我以为跟去的,怎知她不让我去...
我发现我不像男人了...怎么全都她做完??
过后买了食物回来,是secret recipe的蛋糕...
然后我把钱给她,她不要叻...不像话嘛...怎么酱的她??只好偷偷塞进她的钱包...好卑鄙哦!!
然后...她拿出了一分礼物
但不能轻易收下啊...推推拉拉后,还是敌不过她的真心,收下了... @@

她的出现...

哇噻...幸运女神出现了...
就在我最痛苦的时候...
祢突然出现了...哈哈...祢是化为人的神仙吗?
祢突然传讯息邀我出街...还打了muackx在其后,哈哈,为免太恐怖了吧...
昨天算是我们第一次两人一起出街吧,以前都是一班朋友一次出的.
哈,我想也想不到,这种事既然会出现在我身上...
她不但请了我吃麦当劳,还付了电影院的钱叻...
到底我是男的,还是她是??
这算是我人生第一次给女的包完吧...哈哈
我算是很幸运吧,被动的我,找到了主动的她...
虽然她是一直黏着我,感觉上不习惯,但心里可以算把以往的烦恼给抛开了...
一个正式结束!!一个正式开始...
过后她来我家,没想到她给我父亲第一次的印象这么好...
爸爸还当着她的面和我说,带这么漂亮的女孩回来小心老妈眼红...哇哈哈...
没想到会如此顺利...她和家人的接触蛮好的,后来还和我妹一起在妈房间看"宫",还硬拉着我上去陪她,但最终我还是在电脑前面和朋友聊天..哈哈,但她没露出一些生气的样子...这种感觉蛮好的...
虽然,我对她没什么感觉,因为她太美了,可说不是我心中的理想,心里只是把她当着我除去痛苦的良药,因为,我不是很喜欢美女,因为,这样会有许多男人追她,导致我心不舒服..可是生为美女的她并没有什么架子,她的表现恐怕会感动到我...
看完戏后她问能不能在我家过夜,哇劳,别酱子嘛,把我给吓倒了...但她表示有没有客人房,可我还是劝她回家好了,但她还是不愿意,我告诉她,要是她在我家过夜,她家人对我的印象就会扣分了,哈哈,她一听到就马上叫德士,这种女孩未免太可爱了吧!!!所以我自动自发的上车陪她回家,再自己回来,担心她嘛...没想到她给我二十块,叫我搞定...哇劳,我心她在打什么鬼注意,但我感觉到她是发自真心的...
今天我看她大概花了近百,虽然人家是千今小姐,但也不能这样嘛...
所以决定现在出去比须比她抢先一步付...
现在要出了,到底要看什么戏呢??伤脑筋...

糟糕!!

现在我发现公公一直咳到不停,咳到很辛苦...我再一次...哭了...
我到厨房倒了一杯水放在他身边,这可是我第一次真心真意为家人倒水...
看到他辛苦的样子,我真的不知可以为他做什么...
我很伤心,我不想做一个失去家人后才后悔的人...所以要做我能做的事,和眼前的事...
不能再想以往一样了,虽然我戒掉了打机的坏习惯,但我也要再发奋,读好书,不辜负家人,和令他们失望...

胃口?

刚刚勉强的吃下了婆婆买回来的汉包包,现在真在喝汤呢,扑充昨天的饥饿...
但,真不明白我,为什么昨天一天没吃到东西为什么没感到饿呢?反而吃下平时喜欢的汉包包想吐呢...现在也喝不下平时日爱的蘑菇汤...哎哟!振作点啦李名世!!!
突然发现爷爷的病情好象恶化了,每天都一直听倒他在咳嗽...
开始不能在想以前的激他了,必要开始顺服他...
我的家,家人,可说是美好的,我喜欢这个家...我爱每个人...不想失去他们...

绝

男人抛弃女人会留点旧情,女人抛弃男人啊,很绝情...
这句话都对吗?对吧...
哈哈,但我没抛弃你啊...
我真不明白,为什么男人的感情总是比女人深情呢?
想看看吧,女人总是埋怨男人的不是...但,说真的,那个男人不深情呢?身边的朋友,全部难道都不是这样吗??
坦白说,虽然说以前做的一切让你绝望,但我也没有害你或背叛啊...
总而言之,只要一想起你叫我找第二春,就会不禁落泪...
哈哈,但,感情久了,毕竟会想人家所说的会腻吗?
可能,你是这样吧...新鲜感...

进步了

Haih... deng... yesterday stil she mian...haha, but stil got few hour slping time... so good.XD
Now alone at home... haih, ji mo nai nai...haha
Wa, yesterday ony drink a cup of cha suit leh(teh ice) 3 meal also din eat, aiyo, no mood ma...
After i got phone chat with her...only know tat she won bother any more...
I ask her did the blog tat she write any thing or single sentence mean to me, but then she say no... how come?
Den i realy dono y she continue a new 1 so easily, i rather she r writing al my bad thing in tat blog...den maybe i won so BO SONG lo... Haha...
Yesterday night also go yam cah with my fren, al of them cal me to KIU her bak... wa, i don like to be so jin leh, watch movie also got la, love cant force d ma, and after the phone and those msn conversation, i knew tat she not belongs to any more, anymore... need to let go........................
She mean tat boy ony regret after wat they hav do... am i this kind of boy? erm... maybe, but wat i did izit wrong? did i do any thing bad thing like other tat u heard?
Nan guai, tat boy kam leng zai, haha... a normal girl also wont reject lar, maybe the type of the boy also wat i wan, tall tall, got a car can always drive out... haha, but now car useless, i go for car undang maybe bcoz of her, how can always wan gf sit taxi wo and want to fetch her out nxt time my self lol... but now this mission already pass to another boy tat already clear my own mission... unfortunately... haha

多疑还是多余?

I realy don understand... wat make u think until me so damn jin...
althu i do something regret u, but its for our good... i din try to harm u b4 right...
Y u think until me like those boy tat throw away gf until don even blink their eye...
Am i tat kind of boy?? did i strightly do tat?
Haih, but i got no chance to explain n not going to explain... so just write out to comfort my own...
u think me so until bad, is good for u, u can easy forget me in this kind of way...But i cant...
I was always here to wait u...for wat? But u think like this... Even think until i am those bad boy or play boy... did i mention not love u anymore after we BREAK?
u now r realy in good condition... realy make me envy...
u got a bad image on me and also got a new half... i think u wil cure n forget me vry soon...
remember i say we b fren? if i din even think tat we can together anymore i sure won offer to be fren... fren can make us more topic to talk or maybe feel not so stress on each other, and is good chance for us to start a new life agn...Haih...
did u realy realise y i put ur frenster profile as my feathur fren? coz wen i log in i can always c u in my home page n profile... and also my passwaord... i stupid until everything tat nit pass as same put ur DOB, i din evern try change ...for wat? i just try not to forget u...
i realy don understand y u think until like tat... think until i am just like a robot... y u like to think until i am another person?
am i giving this feel to u? i know it suck to let u know this kind of thing... its suck n rubish...
yesterday night after i saw u, i send i love u to u at night, maybe u wil think tat i am those bot tat after do something wrong n ony feel regret right... maybe i am too... haha...maybe now u wil feel fan wei on me after i send u the msg...
but nothing i can tel u anymore...maybe u start u hate me...
haha... so we must happy always now... realy hope tat u can realy happy v him... n hope tat he wont have any bad mind..lol jkjk...

祝福

Haha..after knew tat u guys c each other parents liao...
So, i realy wish both of u good luck la...
Haha, so sweet...
Really so envy this knid of love...
Maybe i din keep the chance properly wen i have it...Lol
Good Luck~

失眠之夜

Haha... how stupid am i....at 1st say put down u but cant...
But i did mention tat i wil kao bak u after my college... But...
u don wait me...
Haha, nan guai nan guai...u so leng lui now... Haha
Until can a boy tat i realy cant cant think it out get away u...
Haha, after u tel me tat u got bf n also 1 month already... i really...
Haih... too late... maybe now i wil let u think tat i dai sei right... sure...
Now my character realy very like jian jiao leh...
Like a movie... Put away my belove, but den after she gone ony regret...
Haha... actually from tat day i say make fren v u til now u stil vry deep deep in my heart, i say make fren, do i mean don love u?
I know after tat u try to make our relation bak, but i act like rejecting u... sry to make u heart pain maybe... Haha, but tat time i do tat just bcoz wan us to grow up and i had never try to forget u also...
Now, i always imagine wil u cme back to me? Haha, i think many people also wil imagine this kind of thing..
But i think tat boy realy more better than me, i realy cant think out any think than make us bak...
Haha, now wat can i do??
Wan u bak but i know i cant... So, like other people say... Cant get bak den wish the people u like good luck la sure... Haih, after i saw u in arvin car, i realy feel tat u already change... after tat the whole night i cant fall in sleep, walao, realy totaly cant fal in sleep the whole night not ony few hours, lay on bed try not to think, but cant...
Y?
N i realy dum dum.. Haha, now i am crying i know u hapy n xinfu now...
i realy cant imagine u wil change ur heart so fast la, n wen i ask u, u already started 1 month...
Suan ba.. Now, just let the road b straight, i wont make it curve any more...
Wish U~