Complicating...

Haha, everything was so complicated in this world... how am i going to discover n figure out all of these...finally, i started with sue 2 days ago, but then we start arguing after 1 day we start, means yesterday night...swt...argue about nonsence agn, she keep ask me about Sherru stuff...plz la, plz don make me so fedup abt it, i have aproved u so, for sure i cant like 2 girls in a time, as i am not play boy...XD

And yesterday she keep on asking, i think she is expecting me, comon, don think me in tat way...althu i admit i have feel on her last time, and yet its already pass...u asked me for together and i aprove but then u keep on mention wat happen b4 us...she mention wat i have done in her house...swt, althu i wil acpt tat u n ah lock cuddling each other while all the ways both of u was slping, izit more serious tat wat hav i did,althu the identity is different, but wat both of u do is more obvious den us, we just do wat a fren can do as well, no big deal on it...if without saying the identity, u r more deceitful den me!!!but then i know it was passed, so i donwan mention all these pass tense anymore...plz, compromise with me... arent u r hoping those love just like ur cousin tat kind, but then we just start 1 day already start argue in these serious topic tat u create..T.T plz, i donwan like tis, wat i prefer is also just like urs, normal n happie love between u...XD would u?

haih, so suffer on thinking of these...

the next day morning...

预算...昨天晚上,虽然很累,但就如我所预了,失眠,但还好,能躺在我的爱窝上,但也少了我的抱枕..T.T
整晚就一直想起最近发生的事情...T.T 最令我头痛的是,学院的事情...
看着我现在的地步,就想起在培南的我,懒惰的我,爱玩的我,不懂事的我,造成现在的我...XD哈哈..还好有个伟大的女人在我身边陪伴着我,伟大的妈妈,我爱您!!XD真的很幸运有位这样的母亲,只有她似乎了解我现在的感受和情况,一整晚一直陪着我...我越来越喜欢这个家庭了,我也知道,'野蛮'的父亲也开始尝试改变了...天啊!!外面的世界可真大,渺小的我能做出什么伟大的贡献呢...
伟大的世界,伟大的宇宙,伟大的上帝...引领我啊,渺小的我经常迷失方向的...

Lost my beautiful world...

now...just came back frm kl by bus with sue...abit tiring hoping to slp earlier but i know i cant... just came back with my moody spirit, luckily sue acompany me, if not my tears will split out while all alone in bus..we are trying to entertain each other..XD

i think i will confuse my life in kl, althu i have try hard in it, but sometimes thing r not runing as wat we r wishing..T.T i think i am not going to continue taking risk on it...it make me feel more guilty on my own...wtf man, maybe try hard to discovered another way... actually,while the way i coming kl alone...there's many problem around me...condition of college, relationship with sue,transporting problem in kl or how is me going to back ipoh in future...XD but then some of it already been solve, i think there is no such big problem for returning ipoh, n the problem between sue have been solve frm her mouth, shun qi zi ran, wat a short and good phrase.XD so, i think both of us treating each other as friends or good friend now, althu this is not the final answer tat i hoping, but then i've feel tired on it...

Now a days, i am just having many unnecessary problem around me, its going to piss me off and make me crazy... but then, no one is realy understand my problem althu i act nothing frm my shell...now, i starting to hate tis world.(sory god)XD it not as beautiful as i wishing seen last time, i tot this world was cute, but then no, this world is honest and need our own strenght to work our mission and target harder... just feel like crying now, realy fedup al creepy things around me althu my family is warming me now...hhuhh...wat i realy nit now is just a real friend or gf(if necessary)XD to hear my wick voice...XD

Please god, hear my voice and help me up, no one can solve my big problem unless u... althu my tears is coming out now...T.T human r weak, weak enuf, have no enuf strenght to do wat we want...hope my view wil be bright back soon...^^

piss~

Frankly...i cant totally understand y she r stil so damn like taking liquor, althu i keep beting her no to since dono wen, i also feel fedup on my own already, and also feel realy like ahma so long winted as she say...XD maybe try not to care it... just suffering my own self...swt...last night heard she say wat is happen tat night sunday...she say she hang the whole night with those guys, tat gang of people, feel unhappy wen heard it althu i act nothing in fon chat...i ask my self, shud i angry for it? or it doesnt my business...i cant even answer my self...

i keep on wondering...if 1 day, have a girl confess to me, or i saw a girl tat i like... can i accept her or kao her? difclty...until now...i cant even clear the relation between us now, wat identity am i now... single? or in a relation?
n yet i recall tat u r stil saying me tat i am easily to give up...pif!! n yet say it was unfair...i wondering it...i din ever ask girl for chances b4, and i asked u 3 times...haha...wat u r hoping? u wan 999 roses with those word? or some other suprising event? ha, althu i cant force u to admit it or acept it...
As u say, we sms n fon chat everyday is seems we r together... but i realy cant get any conclusion on us, or maybe u wil change ur mind 1st 1 day...
i always remind my self...if 1 day i realy fall in love with other, i think i did not done any offences...beside, i have asked u 3 times for the chances, n u r the 1 who say no...

Suffering

i have just pass the night, suffering night...
after getting the beer,f@ck...my brain turn spinny and start headache...
althu it was very crowd, but then just having a moody spirit, and... the damn beer...lol

happy.. but sad...

Aikz, finally can use pc after Sherru finished her chit chat and went for rest...XD

this pc no chinese star for me agn...swt...today whole afternoon i hang around with sherru at jj n her house...oww,n now, going to stay over night at her house coz later we going to clubbing with her fren, as she bet...lol...aikz, so sad tat she is going to leave, y shud i sad for her i figuring, arent i going to leave ipoh n go kl also...but then only she is the one who seems more seriously, i think penang is nearer compare to kl...but then no one mention abt tat i am leaving...haha, maybe i am too tiny for them..T.T

haha, at 1st we r going to watch movie at jj, but then most of the show i and her already watched, so she suggest go her house to pui her coz her parents have already been to penang, n just leave her and her cutie sister alone at home,aikz, so cute her sis,i hope to get my own child as soon after seeing her..XD

Then, we spend most of our time in her room,we watched mr.bean holiday at her room, it was the movie tat i haven watch and please to watch it as soon, haha, maybe bcoz i like mr.bean...but then after the movie end,i din feel tat the show is nice, the whole movie make me feel bored, only bcoz mr.bean funny action tat make me laugh and keep on enjoying the show only...aikz...and wen the show is on, she keep mentioning jokely she was cold and wanted me to cuddle her...lol,sure, i do it as her wish... after the show, she asked me tat, althu she is my kai mui, arent we stil got chance together, i say jokely, where got brother and sister together geh, she keep on mention it, tat kui mui is just wat i wan her to be, but then she haven aprove yet..swt.. of coz i know i have feel on her, but then b4 tat i keep on think to eat back sue, n now this problem have solved, so i keep on repeling her b4 tat, but then now i found out she is not as bad as i think, a nice cute girl..XD... so i tell her 'maybe'..lol

ha, my parent kept called me many times, n wen i told them i am going to stay over night at fren house, they keep worrying am i staying with a girl..lol, coz they already know tat i date a girl wen i at kl...(driver chun my pou..lol)

Now already feel sleepy, aikz... later stil nit to go out so lately...T.T haih, but then this pc no msn, no game, got nothing...only got the DAMN skype!!!

累!!

回到家了,感觉有点累...精疲力尽...XD刚从吉隆坡独自搭巴回来怡保...
哎呀,本想再离开吉隆坡的最后那一餐可以吃我喜爱的虾面,但考完help的试后都关档了..T.T
呵呵...雪茹下个礼拜要转去槟城读书了..伤心..哈,想起之前叫她当我干妹时那一刻是多么的可笑...haih...一切都不是我所'于'的...世界上,太多我想不到的事了...

oww...lame day...T.T

English...XD haih, need to type english bcoz no chinese star..XD swt...wat a lame day for today...just finish 1u, curve and ikea all alone today..muahaha.. errr...i think din use much $$, just only al those taxi fair... and bought some stuf for my own room from ikea..to make my room look nicer..XD

walao,i have already 3 days combo at 1u..haha,3 days also taken fast food at there..realy, vomiting to recall tat..XD but i walked with sue 2days in 1u, ha.. i think we have al most finishing al those entertianment there...watched movie, SingK, pool, bowling..and for sure my money pass by just like air..T.T haha, but also better to stay at home without any event... haha, i finally asked sue the ques...and her answer,damn fast..lol seems like already know i am going to ask...haha...but i din have any dissapoint sad or those unhappy feeling..XD weird...nvm...it was good to me.. and she remind me tat i don like girl make up or clubbing... i mean to my self, i m not hate it. n now also feel tis kind of event also not wat, but, just don do it so recent, and clubbing is not a healthy program also ma...XD i think i going back ipoh alone tomolo, and going to think wat i shud do for my mum tis sunday..XD mother days coming...

last night...recall back abit fire but also..haha.. i and sue wait for her fren jia zhu from 8.30smtg until 11... swt...tat time my stomach already pain like hell, dying gastric and abit tired also...wait for them for the dinner(bcome supper), and finaly we took at center point mamak stall...before return, jia zhu say can TRY to fetch me home, haha, tat time feel so erm, i think is happy to save taxi fair..lol but last... i suggest him put me at 1u and i take taxi staright back to my relative house..haha, bcoz al of us dono the way back...ha, and i am so appreciate of him...i think he is a nice guy(car run of water.XD) and he abit shy while talking i feel...

HELP college called me, and they say already approved me... can i go? or if i go i am just taking the risk...haih...very fan abt tis topic, dono wen ony can settle al those problem around me..ha, feel so good having so many problem, seems already bcoming a big boy..XD

last night keep on recalling the movie, the hills have eye... damn it... it was so rediculous and disgusting...swt... especialy wen that girl squez out the eye ball of the monster...yukzz...haha, but dono y... my mind keep on pulling me to watch tis movie althu already know it was it...haha, and the victim i think is sue.XD feel so sry to her...haha